Life. It's just that complicated

Life. 

It flys by.

Your birthday has come and gone, now its the dawn of a new day.

Can I have an order of easy with a side of take it slow?

No. 

You're hit with a curveball. STRIKE! You're out!

"Can you not just understand? If I could have it like this, how much easier my life would be!"

"My child, if I give this choice of yours to you, will you look to me in the end when you really need me? Or will you forget that I have a plan for you already? That this plan is far greater than anything you could ever have in mind."

Why are you looking for love

Why are you still searching as if I'm not enough
To where will you go child
Tell me where will you run
To where will you run

And I'll be by your side
Wherever you fall
In the dead of night
Whenever you call
And please don't fight
These hands that are holding you
My hands are holding you

By Your Side - Tenth Avenue North

Life...

I see you walk by like I’m invisible.
My whole life, devoted to you.
No longer will I put myself through this pain. 
You broke my heart without knowing it.
Can you see me?
I’m the one who helped you along every step of the way.
Who sat with you when she dumped you, when she liked you.
I gave you advice. I was there whenever you needed me. Wherever.
Now as I see you grab her hand, I can feel myself getting stronger.
Because you are not for me. 
I am for me. 
One day. There will be someone for me.
But you will never be.

Who are you...

Who are you to say you love me.

Who are you to say you care.

Who are you to call, and ask me, can I come over there?

Who are you to lie.

Who are you to kill.

This heart of mine, inside my chest, aching for a fill.

These are the days we look forward too...<3

1. Rolling down hills and tripping over eachother

2. Drinking pina coladas and getting caught in the snow

3. Shaking hands with cute strangers at YC

4. Meeting our future husbands :P (starfield!!)

5. Planning our jo-bro trip...:( even tho we didn't go

6. Being there in the tough times

7. Loving eachother in the easy months

8. Bird - watching :P <3

9. Star gazing in mexico

10. Playing on a girls softball team and spitting our cat food every where!! meeeooww!! <3

Ever Thine

Ever Mine

Ever Ours

Less than three you <3

Who do I trust. The strong one, or the weak one with no voice, but yet is the strongest.

We all have consciences. Telling us yes or no, good or bad, harmful or helpful. Some say they are just voices inside our heads, most believe that it is the Holy Spirit sent to guide you. 

Have you ever had to decide something for yourself, that may have been one of the hardest decisions of your life? That may have a huge effect on you later in life? Or sooner? 

God gave us a heart to love. To love Him first and foremost, then to use it to love others. But what is love? Is it the love you have for a partner, or for a material of some kind. Is it the love of a mother for her son, or a father for his daughter. Love came from our father. Given to us to use for His glory and power. 

(Read James 1:2-4)

So think about it. Do you love? Who do you love? You're friends, family? How many people do you walk past in the day that need your love, but you don't give it to them, because you don't give them the time of day. Maybe because they're different. But we are given love to use for the whole world. To fill it with God. 

(Read 1 John 4: 7-12 and 19-21)

Ocean Wide - The Afters

Look outside
It's already light and the stars ran away with the night
Things we're said, words that we'll try forget,
it's so hard to admit I know we've made mistakes
I see through all the tears but that's what got us here

If love is an ocean wide
We'll swim in the tears we cry
They'll see us through to the other side
We're gonna make it
When love is a raging sea
You can hold on to me
We'll find a way tonight
Love is an ocean wide

I'll stay right here
It's where I'll always belong
Tied with your arms
Days like this, I wish the sun wouldn't set
I don't want to forget
What made us feel this way
You see through all my fears
And that's what got us here

Love is an ocean wide enough to forget 
Even when we think we can't

I love this song, because it shows how big God's love for us really is. Although it is 10x the size of the ocean, it still helps put it into perspective. 

Refuge: written and composed by: emilee barbour

I take refuge in you

you save and deliever

This sin I have done

this guilt on my hands

Let the assembled peoples gather

judge me, search my mind and matter

My sheild, my God most high

who saves the upright in heart

I take refuge in you

you give me strength

Lets sing praise to the Lord most high

The evil around us

is slowly rising

The assembled gather, the weak will fall

Awake O God, rise up against our enimies

The wicked return to the graves

the needy are not forgotten

Nor the hope of the afflicted ever parish

you listen to the unrighteous cry

Lift up your hands, Lift up your hands, Lift up your hands, and praise the Lord Almighty!

God's Epic Love

Have you ever really sat down, and though about God's Epic Love?

God sent His one and only son, to die for us...sinners in this world full of sin. Consumed by drugs, swearing, sex, alchohol, and ourselves. Putting aside who we really are and who we were meant to be, all because that's what the world told us. What our "friends" told us. What we chose to believe. Every single day, we turn away from our maker. We tell ourselves things to make it feel like its ok. Even though we know it's not. Yet through all the pain, and suffering, ad unforgivable things we've done, God still loves us. He still forgives us. Every time we run back to Him, he's there. Even though we feel like we've let go, He hasn't. He holds on through everything. The thick and thin. We must love Him with all of our mind, our soul. With all that we are, we must love Jesus. The Savior of the unsavable, the unforgivable. The undeserving. 

A little while ago, a friend of mine was going through some tough times with their family. We got talking, and it eventually turned into a talk about God and us as Christians. They asked me one question, that if we constantly fail, are we still called to be Christians? Do we deserve it? I said yes. Because God gave us the chance to change. And even though we take it for granted every day, He still gives us that change again and again. We have chosen the life of following Him. We are His chosen ones, called to bring light into the darkness. Psalm 86: 1-10 says:

"Hear oh Lord and answer me, for I am poor and needy. Guard my life for I am devoted to you. You are my God, save your servant who trust in you. Have mercy on me, O Lord, for I call to you all day long. Bring joy to your servant, for to you, O Lord, I lift up my soul. You are forgiving and good, O Lord, abounding in love to all who call to you. Hear, my prayer O Lord, listen to my cry for mercy. In the day of my trouble I will call to you, for you will answer me. Among the gods, there is none like you, O Lord, no deeds can compare with yours. All the nations you've made will come and worship before you, O Lord. They will bring glory to your name. For you are great, and do marvelous deeds. You alone are God!