Who am I?

You're salvation, is nothing greater.
So why am I so weak. So lost without you.
I know my name. But I don't know who I am. I know I belong to you.
But where am I supposed to go. What am I supposed to do.

I don't know where my life's ended up, or why it's here right now. This place of complete and utter non-understanding. So please, how to I get away from here? I have the short, non-lasting experiences of you. But I can't remember how to keep it longer.. I'm trying so hard to get there, but it's more of an attempt at getting back and forth. I'm trying so hard to seek you, to desire you with my whole heart. Please, break my heart for what breaks yours. Everything I am. Is for your kingdom cause..

God, I miss him. I miss him so much. I miss the boy that I knew, when we could share absolutely everything with eachother. When we talked about EVERYTHING.. I want that chance back, to be his, and he be mine. To know what it's like to have someone who cares about you so much, that they would do anything for you. Except sometimes I think that neither of us were ready for something like that. No matter how much we wanted to be. But I really wanted you. To be with you.

All I want is too be in those places again. Where I'm so close to you, and I know what I'm doing for you at that point in time. Where I can have him, and have that chance.

So please.. Don't leave me here. I want to go home.
Here I am. Lord send me.